I’ve been antsy lately. I feel stuck in my body. Know what I mean? When I have energy I want to do things. When I feel good, I want to do EVERYTHING. Most times I do. And there lies the problem. I try to do it all when I am feeling pretty good. My migraine is at a low pain level, I don’t feel dizzy, and my muscles aren’t achy or painful. My body is allowing me more room to get things done without punishing me for it later. I absolutely LOVE those days. But I am not allowed to drive, everyone at my house either works full-time and/or is in school full-time. My hubby does both, SO, that means I don’t have a chauffeur to take me out of the house. I would totally call a Uber, but since I don’t get out much, I don’t really have any friends who invite me anywhere anymore. I’m the friend they remember they have when they see me at Wal-Mart or Target. Usually the first they ask is how I’ve felt and comment on how good it is to see me out. I know they are genuinely happy for me (because I am too!) but I’d love to just have a conversation that doesn’t include my illness. Here’s the contradiction – it’s usually the first topic I bring up with family and friends when I start a conversation. It’s ok if I do it, hahaha!! Back to the Uber ride, I probably won’t do it. Why? Because I’d probably freak out the poor driver if I had one of my attacks. I’d probably driven straight to the hospital and make things worse! Oh well, I know I’ll be able to drive one of these days. Working with my docs to get that all figured out, have a game plan on the horizon. I just need to stay patient and keep writing and reading! That always helps me pass the time.
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