Stuck in my Own Body

I’ve been antsy lately. I feel stuck in my body. Know what I mean? When I have energy I want to do things. When I feel good, I want to do EVERYTHING. Most times I do. And there lies the problem. I try to do it all when I am feeling pretty good. My migraine is at a low pain level, I don’t feel dizzy, and my muscles aren’t achy or painful. My body is allowing me more room to get things done without punishing me for it later. I absolutely LOVE those days. But I am not allowed to drive, everyone at my house either works full-time and/or is in school full-time. My hubby does both, SO, that means I don’t have a chauffeur to take me out of the house. I would totally call a Uber, but since I don’t get out much, I don’t really have any friends who invite me anywhere anymore. I’m the friend they remember they have when they see me at Wal-Mart or Target. Usually the first they ask is how I’ve felt and comment on how good it is to see me out. I know they are genuinely happy for me (because I am too!) but I’d love to just have a conversation that doesn’t include my illness. Here’s the contradiction – it’s usually the first topic I bring up with family and friends when I start a conversation. It’s ok if I do it, hahaha!! Back to the Uber ride, I probably won’t do it. Why? Because I’d probably freak out the poor driver if I had one of my attacks. I’d probably driven straight to the hospital and make things worse! Oh well, I know I’ll be able to drive one of these days. Working with my docs to get that all figured out, have a game plan on the horizon. I just need to stay patient and keep writing and reading! That always helps me pass the time.

2 Replies to “Stuck in my Own Body”

  1. I admire your ability to smile through it all. Take it one day at a time. Hopefully one day it won’t be the first question out of everybody’s mouth how are you feeling. Hopefully you’ll be feeling much better and you’ll find something that works for you.

    1. Thank you for your kind words!! ❤️

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